I know I do not have that many readers (yet?), but I still feel obligated to apologize and inform on why I have been absent lately. I broke my commitment to keep writing on this blog in the middle of the way, but my egoistic side says that I have to do this.
I have to break up with social media.
Well, of course not the entire social media because I still use social messenger to maintain contacts with the very few people that I have considered. However, I have successfully broken up with Instagram and Twitter... for now. Mainly Instagram, considering the site had the ginormous effect on my life and behavior.
I do not delete my Instagram account. Not yet. I just deleted the app. For me, the first few days were... troublesome. I used to have my fun there. I used to scroll past the Explore page or my timeline and sometimes giggled at my own phone, just because the pictures someone whom I did not even know uploaded. I just found it interesting and be happy with it.
Seeking happiness was easy with Instagram, wasn't it? You see pictures, you laugh at it.
Fortunately, I sometimes like to go with an uphill way. I am glad I went through it successfully, although I have to admit it wasn't easy. The reason on why I am relieved that I decided to find more source of happiness on something else is that Instagram is risky. And dangerous. At least for me.
You may find funny pictures on the site, but based on my experiences, I often laughed at some overweighted woman and I felt bad afterward. What if she knows that I just laugh at her? What if she takes it as an insult seriously?
And it applies to many things on Instagram. Some people with their bad luck, or even someone that I knew being ridiculous, and so on. With the site clinging to my daily life, or should I say me clinging to the site, I feel I am putting myself on risk. I am afraid that I will unconsciously offend people with the simple comments that only take minutes or even seconds to type. It is awful that we can simply hurt people that much. You may never know how words affect people. It is the most dangerous thing. You do not know how much damage you have done to them and you do not know how are they prepared for revenge for you.
Jesus. This is just getting more dramatic and aggressive.
What I am trying to say is, I have been trying to step away from some things that possibly contain bad vibes. I want to socialize more with real people, not someone whom I see on my phone. Plus, I can decrease the amount of how many times I have blasphemed someone whom I did not know personally with my friend just because of what I saw on Instagram. It is toxic, really. No matter how much I want to pour my heart out about that someone, I know it is a bad thing to do and I should not really do that.
I am not writing this to corner Instagram and say that it is a bad site to play with. If you can sort out which one that you should take it and which one you should not, you are free to go. However, my weak mind just decided to completely distance itself from any possible bad vibes. I know that bad vibes are spread everywhere, but I haven't found it yet in my new surrounding. So I guess... I'm good to go. For now.
Until next time.
I have to break up with social media.
Well, of course not the entire social media because I still use social messenger to maintain contacts with the very few people that I have considered. However, I have successfully broken up with Instagram and Twitter... for now. Mainly Instagram, considering the site had the ginormous effect on my life and behavior.
I do not delete my Instagram account. Not yet. I just deleted the app. For me, the first few days were... troublesome. I used to have my fun there. I used to scroll past the Explore page or my timeline and sometimes giggled at my own phone, just because the pictures someone whom I did not even know uploaded. I just found it interesting and be happy with it.
Seeking happiness was easy with Instagram, wasn't it? You see pictures, you laugh at it.
Fortunately, I sometimes like to go with an uphill way. I am glad I went through it successfully, although I have to admit it wasn't easy. The reason on why I am relieved that I decided to find more source of happiness on something else is that Instagram is risky. And dangerous. At least for me.
You may find funny pictures on the site, but based on my experiences, I often laughed at some overweighted woman and I felt bad afterward. What if she knows that I just laugh at her? What if she takes it as an insult seriously?
And it applies to many things on Instagram. Some people with their bad luck, or even someone that I knew being ridiculous, and so on. With the site clinging to my daily life, or should I say me clinging to the site, I feel I am putting myself on risk. I am afraid that I will unconsciously offend people with the simple comments that only take minutes or even seconds to type. It is awful that we can simply hurt people that much. You may never know how words affect people. It is the most dangerous thing. You do not know how much damage you have done to them and you do not know how are they prepared for revenge for you.
Jesus. This is just getting more dramatic and aggressive.
What I am trying to say is, I have been trying to step away from some things that possibly contain bad vibes. I want to socialize more with real people, not someone whom I see on my phone. Plus, I can decrease the amount of how many times I have blasphemed someone whom I did not know personally with my friend just because of what I saw on Instagram. It is toxic, really. No matter how much I want to pour my heart out about that someone, I know it is a bad thing to do and I should not really do that.
I am not writing this to corner Instagram and say that it is a bad site to play with. If you can sort out which one that you should take it and which one you should not, you are free to go. However, my weak mind just decided to completely distance itself from any possible bad vibes. I know that bad vibes are spread everywhere, but I haven't found it yet in my new surrounding. So I guess... I'm good to go. For now.
Until next time.
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