Hello! I am currently writing this because I am feeling like it at the moment although I know that I will not post this on the same day I start writing this, but I feel like I have to share it, whether to make a statement to my closest friends in which I am too coward to say this right in front of their faces or just want to share my experiences and what I have learned from this.
I dropped out from university a month ago, around November 2018 as I have my personal reasons. What people knew was that I wanted to move because I wanted to change my major. Well, I am not completely lying too because I really prefer English Literature than Journalism. Some people have told me what I had realized before they said it to my face; it is such a waste of money. Getting to the university I was enrolling to is not a low price you can afford every day. I know, I realized that. However, my mother was the one who encouraged me to be brave enough to get out from my comfort zone and start working for few months before I get back to university again in the academic year 2019/20. She said it is better to choose what I like to study and be good at it before it's all too late.
Nevertheless, changing my major is not the only reason why I move to a new city and start everything from the bottom over again. It is because I want to; I feel like I have the chance to restart everything and I won't miss it. I have had many problems in the second half of 2018 and felt I was alone at that time. At first, I was mourning my loneliness, but as time went by I also realized what I had been through on the past few months and what I could learn from it.
I used to have many friends before and I still do, but I can feel I am growing more distant day by day with them. It is not that I am forgetting my old friends but I am forgetting all my friends. I know some of them have been really good to me and I really thank them, but I think I should have the I-also-never-know-when-this-will-end time for myself just to clear my mind, seek for new experiences with new people I have never met before and done things I have never done before. I realized that my life is not just about staying and being grateful for everything that I already have, but also making the best out of my life every single day and be grateful for still having that chance. I am grateful that I still have the courage to step out from my surroundings and seek for the new ones. Not all people are able to do that.
So, the answer to my title is: it is okay. It is more than okay to have some distance with the people you have been close to for most of the time of your lives because eventually, you will find out that your life is much more than just staying. By writing this, I am not pushing you to move out to somewhere far or stop talking with the people around you. I just want you to know that you do not have to feel obligated to stay if you do not want to. Just because you have been with them for a long time and after that, you just feel like you HAVE TO stay with them. No. You might apologize if you actually do a mistake, but after that, that's it. If they do not accept your apology, perhaps they still need some time or it is the time for you to get out from your daily basis and start having new experiences.
I am writing this because from what I have seen around me is that some people are just afraid of changes; they are afraid that they have found new friends and they do not trust the new ones that much. It is good to take care of yourselves and protect yourselves from potentially bad-influencing people, but do not let it get in your way and stop you from seeing more of this world. Not all the new people you meet are mean and not all of them are good either. You have to find it by yourself and there is no way you can do it if you close yourselves. Be open and you shall find the true meaning of your life. Do not be afraid of growing distant from the people you have been close to and do not feel that you have to stop talking to them in order to seek more experiences. Growing distant does not mean you have to stop talking and not saying even a single word to them. I believe if you are reading this, you are more mature than that.
So here this goes. I really want to thank everyone who is willing to use their time to read this because this is my opinion, anger, tears and sadness all poured into one.
Until next time.
P.s: wow, I actually post this on the same day I start writing this which means two new blogs in a row! :D leave some comments below if you have different or same opinions with me, just let me know!
I dropped out from university a month ago, around November 2018 as I have my personal reasons. What people knew was that I wanted to move because I wanted to change my major. Well, I am not completely lying too because I really prefer English Literature than Journalism. Some people have told me what I had realized before they said it to my face; it is such a waste of money. Getting to the university I was enrolling to is not a low price you can afford every day. I know, I realized that. However, my mother was the one who encouraged me to be brave enough to get out from my comfort zone and start working for few months before I get back to university again in the academic year 2019/20. She said it is better to choose what I like to study and be good at it before it's all too late.
Nevertheless, changing my major is not the only reason why I move to a new city and start everything from the bottom over again. It is because I want to; I feel like I have the chance to restart everything and I won't miss it. I have had many problems in the second half of 2018 and felt I was alone at that time. At first, I was mourning my loneliness, but as time went by I also realized what I had been through on the past few months and what I could learn from it.
I used to have many friends before and I still do, but I can feel I am growing more distant day by day with them. It is not that I am forgetting my old friends but I am forgetting all my friends. I know some of them have been really good to me and I really thank them, but I think I should have the I-also-never-know-when-this-will-end time for myself just to clear my mind, seek for new experiences with new people I have never met before and done things I have never done before. I realized that my life is not just about staying and being grateful for everything that I already have, but also making the best out of my life every single day and be grateful for still having that chance. I am grateful that I still have the courage to step out from my surroundings and seek for the new ones. Not all people are able to do that.
So, the answer to my title is: it is okay. It is more than okay to have some distance with the people you have been close to for most of the time of your lives because eventually, you will find out that your life is much more than just staying. By writing this, I am not pushing you to move out to somewhere far or stop talking with the people around you. I just want you to know that you do not have to feel obligated to stay if you do not want to. Just because you have been with them for a long time and after that, you just feel like you HAVE TO stay with them. No. You might apologize if you actually do a mistake, but after that, that's it. If they do not accept your apology, perhaps they still need some time or it is the time for you to get out from your daily basis and start having new experiences.
I am writing this because from what I have seen around me is that some people are just afraid of changes; they are afraid that they have found new friends and they do not trust the new ones that much. It is good to take care of yourselves and protect yourselves from potentially bad-influencing people, but do not let it get in your way and stop you from seeing more of this world. Not all the new people you meet are mean and not all of them are good either. You have to find it by yourself and there is no way you can do it if you close yourselves. Be open and you shall find the true meaning of your life. Do not be afraid of growing distant from the people you have been close to and do not feel that you have to stop talking to them in order to seek more experiences. Growing distant does not mean you have to stop talking and not saying even a single word to them. I believe if you are reading this, you are more mature than that.
So here this goes. I really want to thank everyone who is willing to use their time to read this because this is my opinion, anger, tears and sadness all poured into one.
Until next time.
P.s: wow, I actually post this on the same day I start writing this which means two new blogs in a row! :D leave some comments below if you have different or same opinions with me, just let me know!
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